Wednesday 28 January 2009

Me

Dear Diary,
I had this special dream since I was a child; making money from my hobby. I also had a special interest in entertainment business. Long time ago I always thought that what I could do is what I had to do, not what I want to do. What I want to do is just a dream, is just a hobby, not something in real world. What I had to do, this is then just be my life, my job, my responsibility.

Few months ago, my husband said something make me realize that a dream is not just a dream...we can bring it to real world, we can make it really happen, make it be real.
My husband is just so different. He always said "Why not?"

And then I meet this four ladies last month, my four imaginary friends. I put my character into them. Each of them represent one of my personality. . one stage of my life stages.

First character represents my stupidity, clumsy-but-nice and always happy little girl in me. That's was the first me, me when in high school and collage..when I still had lots of friends. Me, when I still had believe in friends and trust my secrets on them.
Me.... Before I met problems in life and think that life is easy, simple.
The second represents 'an always panic and afraid, pesimistic girl' in me. That was me in 'dark moments'... Always panic, afraid of people, stressfull, and always do what people asked me to do even if I didn't want to...
And then, as a balance and impact of that character, was born a free, independent and 'hard to control' character. This character was me when I was abroad, when I coulndn't bear of all the rules tied me...when I don't care all the traditions, when I break the rule.
In my real life, when the second and the third character come, I was all alone... and stay like that until the fourth character appeared.
The fourth character then now was born after I married. A love-everything-clean person, a mother role character.

I put myself in them, and they're in me.
That four personality is me. Even until now, the three of them are taking turn appearing in me.
Only the first character not exist already.
So I make this project to make her re-exist.

I really enjoy this project. I'm free to do anything in their little world. Anything that I can't do here in reality. Anything I've missed.
And they're all my friends.

They're all married, because I'm married too.

The always-afraid girl has 1 child. As I now even after having kids, still afraid of the people around me. Still do what they want even if I don't want to. Always let some people controlling my life.

The fourth character have 2 children. She's closer to my reality now, so I "give" her 2 kids as I do too.

And of course the other 2 still have no child.

Thanks to my sister who always help me editing the text and correcting my grammar.
And also for her support, especially when I remembered my past and falling down.

I draw lots of faces, lots of mimics... And I found out that my life was a really colorful life.

Special thanks to Aya and friends...

For readers, I need your support to finish my project. I still not good in doing this, and it's still nothing... But I still learning too. And I had lots to do to finish it.
I haven't launch it yet, not after I finish the first story.
But for friends who want to support me, you can support me in:

www.aya-chan-comic.webs.com